There are other things that I like but these are the things
I don't want to do without. Having
decided what I want to keep and knowing what I need to have to live, I now can
decide what I want to toss out.
I've started cleaning and clearing out closets and pantries
but nothing has been as rewarding as when I tackled my laundry room. For months I've been stressing over the
light in my laundry room. It stopped
working and, because I've had other priorities, I have been doing my laundry in
the dark. Instead of waiting around to
finally get an electrician in, I took the little lamp off my desk and sat it on
the dryer. Plugged it in and let there
be light!! My whole life changed at
that very moment of enlightenment. I
couldn't wait to do a load of laundry and washed those nasty cleaning rags I'd
been putting off for so long. I was on
a roll! I cleaned the room, even
cleaned the floors and took my iron and ironing board out of retirement
arranging them so I could easily use them when necessary. I couldn't wait to change my sheets so I
could iron my pillow cases! I had to
stop at ironing the sheets though because my best friend in the whole wide world, Susan Freeman, brought me to my senses by
telling me I was being obsessive. Susan has a way of reeling me in when I get too far out in the lake.
I was
surprised that something as simple as arranging my laundry room could bring me
such joy.
There is another kind of clutter that has nothing to do with
stuff and that's what's in your mind.
I've never been one to worry all the time but I do have a history of
over-thinking things. For months I
slept with one eye open because I never knew when Cecil was going to fall or
need something. January 26th will be
three years since he died and I still can't break the habit. It's not unusual for me to go the whole
night without sleeping and, when I do sleep, it's not for long unless it's
drug-induced. At 3:00 in the morning
I'll be wide awake "thinking".
I've yet to figure a way to clear the clutter out of my head! I sure could use some help with that!
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